Feeling Alone

Now, I really don't care if anyone reads this, I'm not doing this for any other reason then just get my frustrations out. If you feel like taking the time to actually read it, then go for it!!

I HATE more then aything in the world, this feeling I have right now. I feel SO alone, like no one cares about ME! I'm not an attention whore, I hate having the spot light, but.....I've been blown off so many times this week, plain out forgotten about, and like i'm not as important as anyone else in my family :(

If you say you're going to hang out with someone, actually do it maybe?! If you have no intention nor actually want to see this person, THEN DONT MAKE THE GOD DAMN PLANS IN THE FIRST PLACE!! And NEVER say "it's been so long, call me and we should do coffee sometime" unless you're actually interested in seeing this person. If you dont want to talk to them again, dont give them a reason to!! It's very simple, trust me!

Just because you're a person who ACTUALLY cares about people, and actually wants to help out her friends, does NOT mean that you can walk all over them, and only speak to them once you need them. Sorry, friendships DO NOT work that way.

One day I may not be here! I may give in to my temptaions of throwing my phone off a cliff and starting a whole new life, completely from sctrach. New name, new city, maybe even new country!! I'm sick of all ths crap you're all putting me threw. I love you all, and I'm here to help, but where the hell are you now?! Where are you when I'm feeling alone? Where are you when I just need to vent? Where are you when I want to get out of the house, just coffee, or hell just a walk?! Exactly, your phones are off, you forgot about me, you're too busy with your own little life to be bothered with my problems.
Good to know you care about me this much, when I would give the world to you guys....