Party

SOOOO
Parties are suposed to be really geat! Have some fun, drink, smoke, chill with friends!
Did my first party in my new place go that way? NO FUCKIN WAY!
Chick wants my roomate to drive her everywhere, so she cant drink at her own party, fuck no!
Then she just decides that she's staying with us all weekend. Yeah, that would have been fine, if you fuckin let us know you that you are, would be great. Maybe not lie to the person bringing you here so they dont feel gulity, and feel like they totally dumped this person on us. NOW, this party tomorrow, she's starts crying over cuz her ex, and ex's ex (make sense?) is gonna be there, and she doesnt want any drama.
Well sorry babe, but if there isnt any with them, its gonna be with us, so just sit tight and get ready to be BITCHED out! fuckin rights, been a looooong time comming, so buckle your seatbelt.
like fuck this man, messed up night. Ready for a nice relaxing sleep before this gong show that will be tomorrow!
peace out

People Say they know me, but have NO idea

I hate when people say "I know you best!" I always think "oh...really!" My bestfriend says she knows me better then anyone, and yeah she knows more ABOUT me but I dont know if she actually knows me. She stills sees me as the person I was then, she doesnt think i've grown....at least it doesnt show. She thinks I'm totally boy crazy, want to sleep with everyone, and flirt with every living thing that crosses my path!
I have a flirtaious personality, I'm not actually flirting. But she just "knows best" doesnt matter what I tell her

OMFG MY FAMILY IS EFFFFING CRAZY!
I get yelled at on a regular basis about school. and my sister DIDNT EVEN GRADUATE, gets money from eveyone cuz they're all so proud of her for being he first on to graduate, AND SHE'S LYING HER FACE OFF!
Someone please come shoot me in the face so I dont have to deal with this shit family anymore!!! MY FUCKING GOD

Omg, here we go again

So, if you miss plans with someone, then tell the person your sorry and will make it up to them. DO NOT blow them off a second time. This will not impress them, and will actually make them want to kick you in the balls over and over again!!
Called me old fastion, but I thought when you tell someone to hang out on a date at a certain place and that time you agreed, that ment you would be there! Sorry if I have just been mistaking this all these years!!
So i'm just down now. You odviously dont care about me, so i'm done caring about you
.....Ryan had the right idea. Doesnt have to deal with this crap anymore

Feeling Alone

Now, I really don't care if anyone reads this, I'm not doing this for any other reason then just get my frustrations out. If you feel like taking the time to actually read it, then go for it!!

I HATE more then aything in the world, this feeling I have right now. I feel SO alone, like no one cares about ME! I'm not an attention whore, I hate having the spot light, but.....I've been blown off so many times this week, plain out forgotten about, and like i'm not as important as anyone else in my family :(

If you say you're going to hang out with someone, actually do it maybe?! If you have no intention nor actually want to see this person, THEN DONT MAKE THE GOD DAMN PLANS IN THE FIRST PLACE!! And NEVER say "it's been so long, call me and we should do coffee sometime" unless you're actually interested in seeing this person. If you dont want to talk to them again, dont give them a reason to!! It's very simple, trust me!

Just because you're a person who ACTUALLY cares about people, and actually wants to help out her friends, does NOT mean that you can walk all over them, and only speak to them once you need them. Sorry, friendships DO NOT work that way.

One day I may not be here! I may give in to my temptaions of throwing my phone off a cliff and starting a whole new life, completely from sctrach. New name, new city, maybe even new country!! I'm sick of all ths crap you're all putting me threw. I love you all, and I'm here to help, but where the hell are you now?! Where are you when I'm feeling alone? Where are you when I just need to vent? Where are you when I want to get out of the house, just coffee, or hell just a walk?! Exactly, your phones are off, you forgot about me, you're too busy with your own little life to be bothered with my problems.
Good to know you care about me this much, when I would give the world to you guys....